Monday, February 25, 2008

No work + No cash = Useless


Jobless, no cash, credit card in max... for the first time in my life I never felt so useless. I cannot believe I resigned! Yes, yes I did. I was even astonished passing a resignation letter on the spot and which effected right away...
It was very a quick decision I made out there, no hesitations. I got irate about the company, I was tired and bored... after 7 months of banging my ass to work every day for 5 days in a week, I still cannot believe I let go of something I thought was important.
It was important before but now it wasn't. After knowing that my work was already out of place, it made me so sick. But never the less, I was happy for a while there... I met different sorts of personalities... aha, yes... Lesbians too :) It never caused such a problem though in a working environment there, actually it was even fun. Yah being a lesbian in a professional working atmosphere can be fun. I know I did.... :P
But back to the ground... I am still jobless. It is hard for me to make a career here. Building one is easy, but making one is difficult. A call center you might suggest, no not for me. I prefer mind driven jobs, more learning, not some scripted day to day work. ESL? yes that! I love to teach... I like the concept of teaching and at the same time learning the techniques of talking... - in which I am trying to force myself in mastering it for the purposes of FLIRTING... hahaha.
Alright, alright... I am a flirty old lesbian. Who prefers staying in between as a femme and a soft butch and being attracted with mostly butches than femmes. - But I love femmes too, not those hot rods though. I hate those.... too much make up, too sexy clothes which make them look like they are desperate!!!
Okay - we are talking about me being jobless, but I just can't stop sneaking thoughts about women.... it's just my nature though. I always find them a daily part of your daily life routine...
Right... while being a jobless creature at this moment, all I do all day is watch cartoons or sometimes veg out and sleep. Yes, I've been running here and there giving out my resume of course... although I am being a pig about it, but I still put efforts in doing so. Though Mama is still sending some cash, but it makes me feel more of a useless pest!
I am glad though that once in a while I check on my blogs and see that there are some people dropping in and putting in their comments... I love it! It makes me feel that I am still loved... mmm drama! So I guess I have to work and update more often now on my blogger, I actually have a lot of issues to write up, a little perverted and some a little too much of almost everything.
Which reminds me, what happened to that girl at my office.....