IM SORRY

Been troubled lately... Anger was in my heart... these are one of the reasons why I wasn't able to blog for such a long time...

But, now I'm fine with more interesting journals to share, experiences unexpected and peoples thoughts... Got new Lesbian friends too that you might be interested of.... :)

Got a job too, but now I've grown and stepped forward to my stepping stone.

New stories to tell you behind a Lesbians life...REALITY. been talking to people lately...

So please hang on for a little more.... love you all.

Was it just a FANTASY , DREAM or REALITY?

First of all, I hate the color Pink, but perhaps I may say that I am in a Limbo right now... sort of... not about my sexual orientation for that matter!!! Right. So, I am out of work - Again. Yes. I really cannot make up my freaking mind. Why do I always have to look for something different? Answer? Don't know....
But, something came up during the past few weeks, I keep on meeting people. People of our kind... and it seemed to me that I had been missing a lot of something lately. Maybe coffee with mates and catching up with friends. So I did those, catched up with my Lez Atty. friend who came to visit Cebu and we had Red Horse instead of Coffee... we chatted. And yes I missed a lot of things, knew a lot of stuff while chatting with her. It amazed me how she can see things, look through things and describe things.... one of my favorite is: " Don't keep on asking if you don't want me to lie to you " <<< a big hit! and " When we're younger it is important to be happy than to be right, but as we grow older it is important to be right than to be happy " <<< golden award! I never knew there is a such word as... TRISEXUAL......hehehe.... Try everything... and that's a joke.
Eventually, after hours and hours of chatting, I felt a relief... I realized 3 things... I am truly a Lesbian - no doubt, I am penny less and I am committed with someone. So which one's are fantasy, dream and reality? Is it me a lesbian - Fantasy? No. Or I never dream of being penny less.... or me being committed with someone a reality for me? As I am sitting here in front of my PC doing this blog, I cannot imagine how things in life really works. Or, how it should be, or where it must be. But anyway, there are more important things I have to settle... BILLLLLSSSSSSSS..... Globe lines, PLDT, PO, 5'6, Credit Cards.... you name it, and now not having any job again... well, this is the time we say " A-kuna ma-tata " hehehe.
There are a lot of stuff I want to share here... but I am still focusing on them 1 by 1 because as to my brain cells are in cyber space.
If some of you may ask, how I'm doing lately.... well, not fine. My heart is messed up, life's messed up every thing seem to change.

Back on the Job!

I'm back on track and in action! Got a Job!!!! after weeks of job searching, job interviews... it was all worth it....
Anyway, yes, I am back in track too.... feeling useless the previous weeks made my sex life into a swinging mood. And now I'm done with work hunts, I guess my sex life will be back to normalcy mode!!!! My girlfriend was patient enough to roll with my moods, now she will be receiving lots from me. :)
Here's a story that goes with it, I guess she was being horny that night, and me, being this dum ass person, totally ignored her gestures... de ja vous, it happened more than 4 times in a week. I feel sorry for her... I guess being into so much of feeling useless made my sex moods change. So I guess I really have to hold on to this job now.... I don't want the same thing happen again. We all know sex is good. Specially if we're lesbians? Right?

No work + No cash = Useless

Jobless, no cash, credit card in max... for the first time in my life I never felt so useless. I cannot believe I resigned! Yes, yes I did. I was even astonished passing a resignation letter on the spot and which effected right away...
It was very a quick decision I made out there, no hesitations. I got irate about the company, I was tired and bored... after 7 months of banging my ass to work every day for 5 days in a week, I still cannot believe I let go of something I thought was important.
It was important before but now it wasn't. After knowing that my work was already out of place, it made me so sick. But never the less, I was happy for a while there... I met different sorts of personalities... aha, yes... Lesbians too :) It never caused such a problem though in a working environment there, actually it was even fun. Yah being a lesbian in a professional working atmosphere can be fun. I know I did.... :P
But back to the ground... I am still jobless. It is hard for me to make a career here. Building one is easy, but making one is difficult. A call center you might suggest, no not for me. I prefer mind driven jobs, more learning, not some scripted day to day work. ESL? yes that! I love to teach... I like the concept of teaching and at the same time learning the techniques of talking... - in which I am trying to force myself in mastering it for the purposes of FLIRTING... hahaha.
Alright, alright... I am a flirty old lesbian. Who prefers staying in between as a femme and a soft butch and being attracted with mostly butches than femmes. - But I love femmes too, not those hot rods though. I hate those.... too much make up, too sexy clothes which make them look like they are desperate!!!
Okay - we are talking about me being jobless, but I just can't stop sneaking thoughts about women.... it's just my nature though. I always find them a daily part of your daily life routine...
Right... while being a jobless creature at this moment, all I do all day is watch cartoons or sometimes veg out and sleep. Yes, I've been running here and there giving out my resume of course... although I am being a pig about it, but I still put efforts in doing so. Though Mama is still sending some cash, but it makes me feel more of a useless pest!
I am glad though that once in a while I check on my blogs and see that there are some people dropping in and putting in their comments... I love it! It makes me feel that I am still loved... mmm drama! So I guess I have to work and update more often now on my blogger, I actually have a lot of issues to write up, a little perverted and some a little too much of almost everything.
Which reminds me, what happened to that girl at my office.....

ChoNa1

Right.... a lot of people telling me that I am such a snob. well, that is totally untrue! Infact I am so friendly and out going, i can immidiately make friends with people, men or women, gays or straight. I am not an eccentric person.
I am Lesbian, that's true, I have 9 tattoos, true too, I have tongue and brow pierce, true, I am alcoholic, mmm yah you can say that too, I smoke, yes that too - but even though with all that, that doesn't make me a bad person, that doesn't make me different from others. eventhough I grew up abroad, I still have the heart of a pinay, I even like stying here for good now,
specially that I have gathered new sets of good friends....

During boring weekends, I enjoy myslef drinking, billiards and watching good pinoy bands!!! I used to have a Music entertainment - Purple Revenge entertainment- that catered Heavy Metal music.



To some, people address me as hardcore person because of the things that I like, enjoy and do... true too.
I like to hang around with people who are trully down to earth, friendly and true to them selves.




I love Redhorse, Bacardi, Jack Daniels, Jose Cuervo, emperador and Carlo rossi. i love Marlboro red and carribean tobaccos. I like to sit in the patio drinking tea in the morning and sitting by the garage under the heat of the sun.
I don't go to mass - BUT I have faith in the Lord and visit Sto. Rosario church every morning before heading for work. I have a good job, a 5 yr old son and credit card to spend my what ever I wish for and have my mother send me money to pay for it - - - joke!!!! I am living a happy and satisfied life with respect on top of my head, with love and assurance to the people surrounding me. I am very grateful of what I become and what I have in my life. So what else could I ask for? - - - - more credit cards!!!!

The Right Way.....

"Making love" that would be the first thing that pops in most straight people's mind. A lot of straight couples comes up to me asking me this question - How do you make love with her? I guarantee, it's no difference as being straight couples making love. I may say that the passion I have with women when I make love is intense.

I always make sure that I do it the right way... meaning, with love, tenderness and of course the satisfaction I give...

Making love-in so many ways, could be wild or gentle. If I truly love the person, I would rather prefer to caress her body gently than scratching her soft skin. I would rather stroke her hair softly than pulling it in different directions. I would rather kiss her passionately than just licking her anywhere.

To me, Making love is one of the greatest creation that anybody can enjoy, regardless of who they are. If you do it the right way, surely you will get the ultimate making love score ever.

There is no such thing as "how do you do it, you're both women or men?" question. making love is blind, it cannot see, but it can feel. The feeling of making love is important. We are all human beings with the rights to express our sexual desires.....

Lesbian Sacred Sexuality

"With vibrant double kiss, our words of sex and spiritualityare always lip to lip : ecstasy, communion, surrender, passion,mystery, devotion. As St Theresa said, "All the way to heavenis heaven." In the poetic text of Lesbian Sacred Sexuality, fleshplumes, the interior castle glistens. Buddha women enkindlethe breath within the breath, warming spine wine, mandalaeyes penetrate. Here, Lesbian camera subjects, unlikemodels, open their soft core, teaching how the mind tellsstories, how the body forgives. One question: Just where isthis dark room? A fragrantcedar forest where lightening struck a rushing mountainstream, releasing the essence of heavenly fire? To heranointments of light, I offer salty incense as valleys overflow.

GAY MARRIAGE... IN THE PHILIPPINES

Baguio City -- Who wore the bridal gown? Neither spouse. The couples were in their best barong tagalog as they march down the isle.
After six years nurturing their love, David and Alex finally exchanged wedding vows and rings as their family and friends stood witness to Baguio’s first same-sex wedding in a closed door ceremony held here last Monday.
David, a cultural arts worker, and Alex, a business consultant, formalized their relationship in a holy union officiated by Fr. Richard Mickley, founder of the Order of St. Aelred and known to have officiated same-sex marriages elsewhere in the country. The couple met in Manila six years ago and fell in love. They later moved to Baguio and became successful in their respective fields.
Two adult ring bearers and a lesbian partner carried their "wedding veil" that was actually a rainbow flag, the colorful international symbol of gay and lesbian pride.
"My partner and I don’t do role playing," said David. "We are both gay men and we’re taking pride in our decision to marry even if current laws won’t recognize this basic human right. But despite the inequality, a growing number of gay people are entering into relationships and establishing their own families without state-sponsored legislation."
He added that unlike holy matrimony, a "holy union" doesn’t require legal documents. People enter holy union as a holy sacrament that seeks divine blessings for the love they share to one another.
Proponents of same-sex marriage in the Philippines Congress have been pushing for the legislation of equal right for gays and lesbians but have always encountered violent opposition from conservatives, particularly the Catholic church, who shamelessly pervert the unconditional love of God by casting stones at those they declare more sinful than themselves.
The pre-dominantly Catholic population of the Philippines is traditionally tolerant and accepting of gays within the family structure. Many well-known gays hold visible and high positions in government and the private sector.
In 1994, the Progressive Organization of Gays in the Philippines (ProGay) led the first gay and lesbian pride march in the country. Since then, Filipino homosexuals have marched in an annual public pride parade every June and a number of grassroots GLBT groups have lobbied the government for official recognition of their basic human rights.

LESBIAN BRAIN

The brains of lesbian women respond to sexual hormones differently from heterosexual women, according to a new analysis.The lesbians' brains reacted somewhat like those of straight men. It's a finding that adds weight to the idea that homosexuality has a physical underpinning and is not learned behavior.

Similarities between the response of lesbians and straight men were not as strong as between homosexual men and straight women.It shows sexual orientation may very well have a different basis between men and women ... this is not just a mirror image situation.

The important thing is to be open to the likely situation that there are biological factors that contribute to sexual orientation.

What do you think? Do lesbians have more in common with straight men or with other women? Add your comments below.

I AM WHAT I AM

I started to appreciate the same sex when I was in my elementary years. I thought It was quit odd because I was a bit uncomfortable about it. My family (clan) has some history of having Lesbian members.
I was really attracted to her, she was (is still) a butch. Her name was Bing. Every time I sit in class with her, I always could not stop looking in her direction. And every time our eyes met, I could not hide my red face. I liked the feeling.
Eventually as years passed, my family and I decided to relocate. I left the Philippines when I was only 10 yrs old. With in those many years, I never had thought about what I felt with the same sex, maybe because I was surrounded with boys and femmes in school and was very busy with school work and adjusting to the new environment. It was then with in the 11yrs in Bahrain I got married. I was 21 and had a baby boy and graduated college.
After 11yrs in Bahrain, my family and I relocated again. My husband and I were separated because of work. He was based in Mosul, Iraq while I stayed in Canada with my parents and my little son. With in 4 years my relationship with my husband was not good. I got hooked up with some girls here and there. So I decided to work with DHL so I can be based in Iraq to be with him. And there I was, Baghdad, Iraq. It did not help.
I was 26 when I got back in the Philippines to be legally separated. And I was.
During my stay in the Philippines I met someone of the same sex who literally moved in with me. I then made a comparison. Men can be sometimes clueless. It was that time I realized I was more comfortable with women. she was a butch.
2006 was a disaster year for me. It was the year my x-husband knew about my Lesbian relationships back in Canada, it was also the year I finally told my parents about me because they found out a woman was living in with me. it was that year i lost hundreds of thousands because of my Atty. and it was that year that i had my worst night mare with her. It was not good. My relationship with her did not last that long. I get on with my life and she did too. I had relationships with men... 2 to be exact and it never lasted. I decided to stay away from any relationships.... but it was not successful. I got very attracted to WOMEN.... of any sort. Dykes, Butch or Femmes.... I had been with them non stop. It didn't bother me what people say since my parents knew already of what I've become and they still love me for that.
2007, it wasn't such a bad year. It was the year that I got accepted in my first job in the Philippines, it was where I met knew friends at work, It was the year I met someone really special and it was the year I accepted myself as a Lesbian. And most of all, It was the year my parents, relatives and friends accepted who I am.
Finally 2008!!!! I really don't know what would go wrong this year. Maybe CASH!!!!! like other normal people do.... but I feel happy, comfortable, proud and sincere of who I become.
I realized why would I be ashamed of it? People on drugs are supposed to be the ones to be ashamed, people in denial, hypocrites and God knows who else.
I Love women, I Love my son, I Love the Lord, I Love my friends, I Love my family, I Love my life. this is what I have and this is who I am. All we need to do is know ourselves and accept it. Life is like a book with many chapters in it. Don't be a critic and don't make a grin after you read this.

ALICIA KEYS, A LES TOO!

ALICIA KEYS IS REALLY MAKING THE ROUNDS. ALL THE LESBIANS OF THE WORLD (QUEEN, MISSY, MC LYTE) SHOULD BE REAL PROUD. MISS THING LOOKS ABSOLUTELY FABULOUS IN THIS PICTURE.
Alicia Keys says she looked “rough around the edges.” But now that’s all changed. BUTCH LESBIANS ALWAYS LOOK ROUGH!

WHAT ABOUT LIPSTICK LESBIANS?

A lipstick lesbian is a slang term for a stereotypically feminine lesbian who is attracted to other feminine women, rather than a lesbian who is attracted to more masculine women, such as in a "butch and femme"-type relationship. It is also used to describe a homosexual (or bisexual) woman who exhibits feminine gender attributes, such as wearing make-up (thus, lipstick), wearing dresses or skirts, having a love of shopping, and perhaps having other characteristics associated with feminine women. In mainstream American films, lesbians are often portrayed according to the lipstick lesbian stereotype to be both politically safer and more sexually attractive to male viewers. A good example is Showtime's television series The L Word, which presents most of its major lesbian characters in this way. Most lesbians in mainstream pornography are also portrayed in this way.
The term was used in San Francisco at least as far back as the 1980s. In 1982, Priscilla Rhoades, a journalist with the gay newspaper The Sentinel, wrote a feature story on "Lesbians for Lipstick." The term is thought to have emerged in wide usage during the early 1990s. A 1997 episode of the television show Ellen widely publicized the phrase. In the show, Ellen DeGeneres's character, asked by her parents whether a certain woman is a "dipstick lesbian," explains that the term is "lipstick lesbian," and comments that "I would be a chapstick lesbian."
In 1999, columnist Mark Steyn called actress Anne Heche, who was dating DeGeneres at the time, "the world's most famous lipstick lesbian." [1]
A distinction is sometimes drawn between the phrases "lipstick lesbian" and "chapstick lesbian" and the older phrases butch and femme by suggesting that the former phrases simply refer to appearance, whereas the latter imply mutual attraction of the two types. "Chapstick lesbians" are often considered soft butch.
The term has also been reinterpreted as a derogatory reference to feigned lesbianism — implying that it is as easy as lipstick to add or remove.
An alternate term for "lipstick lesbian" is "doily dyke."

ARE YOU A CHAPSTICK LESBIAN?

A soft butch — also known as a chapstick lesbian — is a woman who exhibits some stereotypical butch lesbian traits without fitting the masculine stereotype associated with butch lesbians. These traits may or may not include short hair, clothing that was designed for men, and masculine mannerisms and behaviors. Soft butches generally appear androgynous, rather than adhering to strictly feminine or masculine norms. In the spectrum of gender expression among lesbians, a soft butch lies closer to a butch lesbian than to a lipstick lesbian.
This type of behaviour is also considered socially acceptable of alternate gender roles within the lesbian community. Whereas it is sometimes considered a betrayal of the lesbian community to be "too feminine" or "too masculine", the soft butch is an acceptable in-between state that generally receives greater acceptance.

BUTCH and FEMME TODAY

Many young people today (in the homosexual community) eschew butch or femme classifications, believing that they are inadequate to describe an individual, or that labels are limiting in and of themselves. Some people within the queer community have tailored the common labels to be more descriptive, such as "soft stud," "hard butch," "gym queen," or "tomboy femme." Comedian Elvira Kurt contributed the term "fellagirly" as a description for queer females who are not strictly either femme or butch, but a combination.
Lesbians and genderqueers who identify as Butch or Femme have experienced a renaissance as the Internet has brought the butch-femme community together. To be either butch or femme challenges traditional gender roles and expectations about appropriate gender presentation and desire, and expands the concept of what it means to be female. Some femme men, femme women, and butch women regard themselves thus as genderqueer for that reason, but many others do not. Moreover, some genderqueer people identify their gender primarily as butch or femme, rather than man or woman.
It is also important to note that those who identify as butch and femme today often use the words to define their presentation and gender identity rather than strictly the role they play in a relationship, and that not all butches are attracted exclusively to femmes and not all femmes are exclusively attracted to butches, although this was traditionally the norm.

FYI on Lesbians

Science > Science Dictionary

lesbian
A homosexual woman.

Words > Dictionary

lesbian(lĕz'bē-ən)
A woman whose sexual orientation is to women.adj.
Of, relating to, or being a lesbian. See Usage Note at gay.
[From the putative homosexuality of Sappho, lyric poet of Lesbos.]

Words > Thesaurus

lesbian adjective
Of, relating to, or having a sexual orientation to members of one's own sex: gay,

A lesbian is a woman who is romantically and sexually attracted only to other women. [1][2] Women who are attracted to both women and men are more often referred to as bisexual. An individual's self-identification might not correspond with her behavior, and may be expressed with either, both, or neither of these words.

Public policy
In Western societies, explicit prohibitions on women's homosexual behavior have been markedly weaker than those on men's homosexual behavior.
In the United Kingdom, lesbianism has never been illegal. In contrast, sexual activity between males was not made legal in England and Wales until 1967. It is said that lesbianism was left out of the Criminal Law Amendment Act of 1885 because Queen Victoria did not believe sex between women was possible, but this story may be apocryphal.[3] A 1921 proposal, put forward by Frederick Macquisten MP to criminalize lesbianism was rejected by the House of Lords; during the debate, Lord Birkenhead, the then Lord Chancellor argued that 999 women out of a thousand had "never even heard a whisper of these practices."[4] In 1928, the lesbian novel The Well of Loneliness was banned for obscenity in a highly publicized trial, not for any explicit sexual content but because it made an argument for acceptance.[5] Meanwhile other, less political novels with lesbian themes continued to circulate freely.[6]

Sexual activity between women is as diverse as sex between heterosexuals or gay men. Some women in same-sex relationships do not identify as lesbian, but as bisexual, queer, or another label. As with any interpersonal activity, sexual expression depends on the context of the relationship.

Media depictions
Lesbians often attract media attention, particularly in relation to feminism, love and sexual relationships, marriage and parenting. Some writers have asserted this trend can lead to exploitive and unjustified plot devices.[7]